Shamefully Self-Conscious

Hello!!! It's been a while since I last wrote in Prose, so this challenge is perfect to explain!

I started a class called Beginning Creative Writing in the summer and during that time I realized my writing had a lot of flaws, especially with present/past tense verbs. I couldn't really tell the difference or even knew it was involved with time. And when I think I got it, it's still wrong. And poems were the same thing, except they have complicated rhythm rules and it makes my work look like trash.

So looking back at my stories and poems here on Prose I started seeing those mistakes and felt like I couldn't write and post here anymore. I wanted to post the ending for my Laughing Doll series, but then I became self-conscious of my flaws and don't post at all. I want to do the fun challenges here and just write for the fun of it; however, the thought of professional writers reading my work and cringing at my mistakes terrifies me.

And since I have posted so much here, I don't think I have the time to fix all of them. Not even the ending for my Laughing Doll series since that one is mostly done. So I felt a little ashamed of myself and, yeah, I'm no professional, but still, I can't help feeling like this.

Of course, I've learned, but nowhere near perfect and yet I WANT to write so badly here. It's fun to read everyone's work and it's great to be inspired by these fun challenges. I mean, October is the perfect time to write and read horror stories!

Speaking of which, one of my stories, a Halloween tale called The Pumpkin Lass, was accepted by the college's publisher and I've been excited for that. My story is going to be published in the school's books! And just in time for the Fall edition, too! I can't wait to hear what everyone says, but I'm also a little nervous since it's my first time publishing and my story is still far from perfect.

So that's how it is for me. Anyone get me?