~I accept myself because no one else will~

I'm a reckless mistake, Being rejected by the world. Am I that messed up you can't even notice my existence? The world is the darkness to my pointless life. I'm not perfect and I'm far from it, but am I that imperfect?? I must be because you look down on my looks, personality, Hobby's, my life even. Your the only person that mattered to me and you shot me down like the ant beneath your shoe or like a bullet firing from your rifle. What's the point in being here when is all you want is to disappear?? No matter how hard I try I can't find a purpose in this world. People are never going to accept me, maybe it's for the best. But I will accept myself if no one else will, what choice do I have? I see things in myself no one else does and I know my strengths and weaknesses, others guess but will never know my story. Nor the hell I went through as a child till 13 years old and then from 13-16 and how much I'm trying to change my 17th year of life. But people also don't care to pay attention, they just want to judge me by my cover..