A beautiful surprise

I just found out that I am pregnant. My first thought was ‘No! I cannot be pregnant. We were so careful!’ I was in a state of shock. I just could not understand how I was pregnant when I was on the pill and my boyfriend used condoms. I did not want to have a baby right now.

I got angry with my boyfriend, with my mom (she was the one who suspected that I might be pregnant), and with God (for allowing this to happen). I could not stop praying to God for me to have a miscarriage. I cried myself to sleep every night. The worst thing about all this wasn't the fact that I was pregnant, but that my boyfriend was not with me physically the entire pregnancy. I went to all the appointments by myself. I bargained with God. Soon I was house hunting for me. I didn't care anymore. I got everything needed for my baby.

My family was excited about the new baby, but could not be there for the birth. I went into labor three days after the baby' due date. I was in labor for 25 hours. When my baby decided to finally grace my presence, I did a complete 180. I went from not wanting this baby to loving her as soon as she was placed on my chest. Nine years later and I still love her so much.