apology

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry i couldn't be good enough for you.

i'm sorry i hurt you, on purpose or not.

i'm sorry for everything that i ever said to you.

i don't deserve you,

and you don't deserve to have to deal with me.

i'm sorry for the suffering i caused.

i'm sorry for the times i made you stay.

i'm sorry for the times i cried to you,

wondering if you even cared

now i know you don't.

i'm sorry that i took a part of your life,

i'm sorry that you cannot get it back.

you see, these things don't come with gift reciepts

or i surely would have been returned by now.

i'm sorry that i wasted all your time.

i'm sorry that i tried to make you laugh.

i'm sorry for all the times i tried to be good enough for you,

knowing full well i could never measure up.

i'm sorry for what i said today.

i'm sorry that you know it all was true.

i'm sorry you feel the need to protect me

by hiding your true feelings, but i can handle it.

i'm sorry that you don't trust me with your life.

i'm sorry that i trust you with mine.

i'm sorry that i would take a bullet for you,

even if you wouldn't bat an eye.

i'm sorry that i spilled my guts to you,

i'm sorry that i took all of yourself.

i'm sorry that i made you into me,

because i am not the person you need to be.

so i'm sorry that i've ruined your whole life,

i'm sorry that i've caused you so much pain.

i'm sorry that you have to deal with me,

but i'm not sorry that you won't have to again.