lavender hazes and murky skies

i left you out in the pouring rain and let the cold sink into your bones: i let her hold your hands and kiss your lips and watched as your cries turned to moans. and that hurt. more than i’ve ever known. but i knew i had to. you were all i’d ever known but i had to let you go because distant memories always seemed better in your darkest places. i can’t handle all these ghosts in lavender hazes. i remember you used to sing to me. lyrics never meant so much and i’d never heard singer-songwriters filled with that much love. that much angst and regret. they never sang the blues quite like you. you were a romantic and i was quite the hopeless case: you had eyes only a writer could describe and i was hopelessly lost in space. i have a lump in my throat from holding back sobs but i know it’s all for good. i know she’ll love you more than i could.