Facebook Declaration

Happy 18 years baby! I declare on Facebook, hoping my highschool "friends" will see.

I'm saying "I am not a slut."

I'm saying see,

I am a worthy person.

I'm saying those words

Still sting,fester just under my skin,

The rumours both true and untrue, still make me want to delcare innocence, whatever that is.

God forbid I'm not totally innocent.

That I "lost" my virginity and "lost" value.

I still, after all these years want you to approve of me, to say I am okay, not less than you.

Still I want you to apologise,

to beg forgiveness.

You made me feel small.

Fuck you! I was never small,

no part of me was lost and I am completely worthy.

I was always magic, you hated that.

Shamefully, I still hope you might accept me back "in"

you might remember whoever you saw die when my name changed to slut.

I still feel like discarded gum from the bottom of your sneakers.