the train trip N’02012020

its the first work day of this new year

it feels special and filled with changes yet very still.

i dont see the sun nor the moon at this timing. im just cruising along what im used to.

maybe im so used to it, the colors i used to see around me faded.

A recall; i think i started seeing things in colors and symbols when i first held bulbasaur?

she has so many shades of green, from the leafy ones to the minty ones, it fed my mind so much.

as with soft toys, they fade but she still is so vibrant and warm.

from fabric right down to holding her.

nothing much i can do but i pray for safety everyday, all day.

and to not forget to tell my mom i love her:

yknow i kind of wish that i can send the patterns and colors i have in my head right to her. wouldn’t it be nice?