The struggle

So I haven’t posted any new stories lately which I feel bad about but being a part of this site has really been helpful.

When I was 16 my high school English teacher (a really great person, one of my favorites) took me to the Clark County Event Center for a writing convention.

He did this with his own money on his own time on the weekend. He did this because he loved my essays, creative stories and even my nonfiction works or opinionated historical research papers... He believed that I could do this for a living and for a long time I still couldn’t see what he saw or believe in myself.

I tried many times to since then but recently I had a baby and I don’t know how many of you know this but full time daycare for infants so mothers can go back to work is on average $1000 a month and much higher for more reputable establishments. And you know I’m not going to send my son anywhere I might think a daycare teacher might hang him ( seriously there are horror stories like that all the time). So I decided to stay at home and we found a way to make it work financially.

With all this time on my hands now ( I was working 60 hour weeks before I got pregnant so I almost didn’t know what free time was like anymore) and seemingly no purpose besides making my son not die, I decided it was time again. This time I have to really buckle down and remember that I am this person who used to love writing, that used to create people and whole worlds out of thin air.

It’s my solution really. It’s my way to work without killing myself for some employer who would replace me before even reading my obituary. It’s my way to combat this relentless postpartum depression. It’s my way to finally be who I am supposed to be without sacrificing being able to provide for my family even if it’s not fiscally immediate.

I’ve written myself a schedule, because I’ve realized I do better with one rather than left to my own devises, and so far I’m on track and doing well. Happy even.

My goal is to finish and release a 500 page collection of short stories (either self published or through a publisher) while simultaneously working on and completing one or two full length novels to be released after, staggered.

These full lengths will mostly be completions of teasers included in the original collection to get people excited for upcoming publications.

Im so excited to finally be doing this and more so to be making progress. So if you don’t see me on the site for a while just know I’m still writing.