goodbye.

on the day that i left you, i knew that it was over. i had spent weeks convincing myself to tell you that i didn’t want to be with you anymore. i knew that many times before your sad eyes and sweet talking had convinced me to stay. but this time, i had never felt to broken. i felt the weight of all that you had done to me and everything that i had been hiding away slowly rose to the surface. you never respected me or loved me. i just didn’t know how to understand that me, my body, or my mind were never good enough for you. you wished you could be with someone prettier, curvier, bustier...but you settled for me. why? why did you have to tear me down? you settled for the small girl with a pretty face...she will do. she has enough. she’s stupid enough to love me. she’s dumb enough to believe me. she doesn’t have enough self love to leave me. i didn’t. i never did. i let you disrespect me and lie to me. i let you use my hate for myself to your advantage. i only wanted love. i was so desperate i was willing to cling to anyone who would pretend to love me. i craved it. eventually, i left. the day i left was freedom. it’s a feeling i can’t forget. i didn’t need you. i only needed myself. but this is me saying that i'm better off without you. the door is now closed, this is goodbye.