Silent Prayer

I wish a wish and dream a dream, that when I open my eyes you’ll be here, alive and smiling. Why did you die and leave me alone in this empty world? Now I’m so lost and I don’t know what to do. Nobody treated me like you did. Nobody encouraged me and made me a better person in the way you did.

He has to be lying right?

I’m sure you didn’t die, you couldn’t have. You were such a strong and bright person, so kind and hardworking. There is no way that out of all the billions of people in this world, that you would commit suicide.

Did he treat you well?

Did he take proper care of you?

He’s always never around it’s like he doesn’t care for the RFA anymore!

....Sorry, I’m sure you don’t want to hear this....

But then things started to get a bit better. She came and she was bright and understanding like you. She was so cheerful all the time and always listened to what I had to say and supported me. It was like you had been reincarnated! Of course, I couldn’t help but compare you two, since you both were so similar. Both of you gave me hope that I could be a better person and instead of dragging me down, you lifted me up! I didn’t understand why others were telling me that comparing both of you was wrong... to me you guys were almost the same! Why would it matter anyway...why would it be so bad if she became you instead? That way I can be happy again, that way I would get to see a smile so bright like yours again. It’s like my prayer came true. But why isn’t everyone supportive of my feelings? Why can’t they understand? They’re all leaving me behind!

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She offered to stay behind with me, she told me she understood. You’re happy for me, right?

I respected you and I wanted to become like you, nothing more, but it’s different for her. Around her, I feel safe, warm, special, loved and so infinitely happy. It’s different. I feel differently about her, I don’t know why. You guys were supposed to be the same. I don’t get it...so please help me from up there...Rika...