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I can’t believe you just left me like this. What happened to “I got you sis, I’ll be here for you always.”? Why didn’t you give me a fucking warning? How dare you give up! How dare you leave everyone behind! That wasn’t your fucking choice! You didn’t even try to talk to me, or anyone; you just left like no one loved you! I loved you, Jon, I fucking loved you, and you took that away from me! I already lost one brother and now I hvae to watch you be put in the ground too? How dare you be so selfish! This Malibu can’t erase all the memories that are replaying in my head. These cigarettes aren’t gonna take the shake away in my hands. Did you even think about us when you pulled that trigger? What about Parker? Is she just supposed to growup without knowing one of the best men that is supposed to be in her life? I’m looking at the sky with hatefull tears streaming down my face and a broken heart in my chest. This last drink is for you bubba. Rest in peace, for all the pain you’ve known your whole life is over now.

~March 17, 2020~