Dear Universe..

Hi there,

It’s me here to speak to you and ask you to send me grace for these tough times. I could use a break from the worrying, the constant stressing and the anxiety. I know I oscillate alot, one minute I’ve managed to convince myself everything is fine and I am at peace. The next I am up at 3.30 a.m wondering how I will make rent. Universe, I pray you teach me to find the right balance. I’m not quite sure the path that life is taking me on, I mean I had a plan and everything, but here we are. Be patient with me as I question you, question myself, it’s not that I don’t trust, it’s just that life has knocked me down a few times and well, my trust could do with a boost. I’m working on it though and it’s hard but I think I’m getting the hang of it.

Send me love Universe, kind love, peaceful love, happy love, accepting love. Send me love that teaches me to accept myself and be ok with not always knowing. I’m working on loving myself and you know how this is a daily battle. So send me a sign every day if you can that I am doing well. Teach me to be happy and be alright that some things didn’t work out. Could you also stop doing that thing where you send me someone, we have a connection then you snatch them away? Please and thanks because it’s getting a little exhausting and I just want to jump straight to the reason why they come into my life without all the heartbreak.

Take care of my mother would you? She drives me crazy but I love her so very much and I just want to know that she will always be alright. Thank you for giving me such a kind and caring mother and thank you that we are friends. I am aware this is indeed a rare thing. And while you are at it, would you take care of my sister too? Don’t tell her I told you but I truly wouldn’t be me without her. Would you remind her that she deserves all these good things happening to her and that no, I do not forgive her for always snitching on me when we were kids.

As you can see Universe, my list is quite....extensive and so I hope you hear me. I know that I am not here because I am special but rather because I still have a purpose to fulfill(help me find that too). And if its not too much to ask, can I always have a supply of mint chocolate everywhere I go?

Yours always,

Cynthia.