Don’t or Do

OCD is a parasite, feasting on your fears and your pains. Questioning you on actions of any kind, it mentally freezes you. Making you question what to do. Do I do this and stop the nagging that will just be stronger next time. Or dont do it, and continue with this thing in my head saying I may be hurt because I didnt do somthing right. Constant judgment of yourself, never ending asking if I did somthing right or wrong. Eventually it got so bad I couldnt go to school, or do simple tasks like brush my teeth. I avoided sitatuions that would wake the beast that is OCD. The beast that threatens me, knowing my fears and using them against me. A beast that does not sleep, making me have trouble sleeping when its strong enough. OCD can make you feel weak, and alone. I eventually went to a thearpy for OCD. At first I thought OCD will just go around everything I did against it. But when I do somthing against OCD, I grow stronger and it grows weaker. I met people with anxiety and OCD. I met people with mental beasts of their own. Together, with my new friends and my family, I did what OCD told me not to do. With strength and love, constant work, OCD lost its power over me. I do what I want. If OCD bothers me about doing somthing it wants, I dont listen to OCD. Everythtime I dont do what OCD wants, I gain my freedonm and independence. OCD may never be cured, but I have grown strong against OCD. I may be pushed down by OCD somtimes, but I just Ihhave to keep getting up and stopping it fom controlling my decsions. I gained a better life, my own life where I do or dont do what I want.