Hurts

It hurts to know that I don't help as much as I should. I am lazy. My mom and dad work to keep the house up and flourishing. And what do I do? Sit, draw, write, read, and school (not to mention eat). it makes me cry at night. I feel hopeless. What should I really be doing? my heart hurts. I feel as if I make my parents' hearts hurt. I tease my siblings, don't study enough, and drink up the milk. I don't know how to fix it. I try, I don't succeed. It hurts.