Isaiah R.

It's almost like the words don't start pouring in until 1am & like any other night you find your way into my head, it's been 4 years since I last saw you & it's been a hell of 4 years maybe this doesn't make sense right now because it's late at night & my mind is all jumpy because I know I have work in 5 hours but I haven't been able to rest ease because I started thinking of you & although it's been on & off I just can't help but to think of you like almost if you are trying to tell me something but I just don't know what it is. I remember how I felt when I saw you the first time it was 3rd grade & we were just some funny looking kids trying to find where we would fit in but it's like the first time we ever saw each other we knew we would fit in anywhere as long as we had each other, I guess it was something only we understood ,When we got to 8th grade we were still funny looking kids trying to fit in but always ended up finding each other & we fit in perfectly together it always felt right like if it's where we had to be, I remember how you would look at me when I was having a bad day & ask me what was wrong & Before I could say a word you would just hug me like if you could read my thoughts, Being by you was like being by the ocean & feeling the vibration of the waves beneath our feet it was a feeling like no other & it was a feeling I could hold on forever. 9th grade was the year I saw you for the very last time, we had algebra together & like every year we were just funny looking kids trying to fit in but this time we actually knew were we fit in & it was together like it was always meant to be but only this year was different because I didn't appreciate it because I was blinded by what you called lust & like always you were never wrong, I remember not caring when you finally decided to leave because we just didn't fit in anymore & one day by the stair case you told me we didn't anymore but even when you said that you gave me a look that only I understood what you were trying to say but before I could find the words to say "Wait" & hugged you like you once hugged me, You disappeared & I never knew where you had gone all I knew was that a part of me was missing & to this day it is still missing & I can't find that connection with anyone else it's almost like you knew who I was before I even knew who I wanted to be & I knew you before you even knew who you wanted to be.