For years I've watched from the sidelines
Longing to be a part,
But always being apart,
Because one loophole makes me afraid.
But I won't do it, I can't, I won't,
No matter how much I want to be
One of them;
Be on the stage, feel the light.
They say I can do it anyway,
But whether I can I'll never say.
I cannot ask, though I have tried,
And now I'll never have the chance.
If I really wanted it, would I have done more?
But it's too late now, and I'll move on.
But still look back and wonder:
How would it have been
If I'd had the courage to speak up?