Crankshaft

Disconnecting the call and then stopping her Lamborghini, she came out of the car. She could see him approaching towards her.

She : Are you kidding me? Why are you here when you should be attending your own freaking wedding?

He : I’m here for you.

She : Why? Are you scared that I’ll kill myself just because you are getting married?

He : No...you’ll kill yourself just because you’re upset.

She rolled her eyes at the truth and tried to find something to get back at him by looking far away.

She : And you think your marriage will upset me? Seriously?

He : No, your getting upset is in no way related to me. You’re upset because of the confusion you’re stuck in.

Her breath was getting shallow. She remembered all the time they had spent together and was amazed at his power of taking notes. How can he so easily state the reasons when I’m struggling to find the answers, thats what she was thinking at his every reply. But he was behind her dilemma or maybe she was complicating it. Getting herself together she went on.

She : Why do you think that I’ve feelings for you? How many more times do I have to tell you that I don’t love you?

He started to walk towards her while she tried to be numb. No emotions whatsoever, she repeated to herself. She hated how he came this close to her without making her feel offended at his breaking the walls she had created. It felt like he kindly put those bricks away and not smashed them down. Stiffly she stood and he silently whispered.

He : The soul controls the body....

What the ...? He read my post last midnight! He still checks them? Or maybe he was just missing me?...Missing me?!

He ( continuing ) : ... And your eyes that are changing directions more than there are routes in this city, your breath that is flickering like a burning candle, your hands that are shivering like the Sun went cold, your heart that is pounding fast like the engines of the cars we drove that night, every single thing, your whole body is telling me the exact opposite. That you love me.

She stepped back. How badly she wanted to praise those lines but couldn’t. She took a deep look at him, how he had changed from hating literature to this. Spending time with others really change them.

She had now given up. No good comeback was coming into her mind.

She : Leave. Now.

He : You sure you don’t want me to stay?

She : Sure as the truth that I don’t love you.

He smiled as he sighed. He knew fully how unsure she can be and how much pain that could cause her. In order for her to feel the calm, he had no other choice but to leave.

He : Alright!

She was going to take a deep breath but it stopped when he turned back.

He : You know that your windows are not soundproof , right?

She (confused) : Yeah ... But why?

He : Because if I hear you playing ‘Mirror’ or your screams of rage that you have imposed on yourself then I’ll come back.

This made her turn down the volume of the song that was playing in her head and silenced the screams of her body that would soon come out banging on the steering wheel.

But at the same time she wanted to play that song on repeat and open up her body so that he could see those screams. Pathetically confused she was.

He : Last thing... You deny that you love me but you do know that I love you, right? That its you who I want to die with? Its you who I want to talk to every time I breath. Hold you so that you’ll never fall. Create love as if there’s nothing in the world but us. That I’d give my everything to be the best husband, best father, best friend and your lover for the rest of my life. That even if you die, I’ll catch up with you in heaven the very next day. You do know that I love you even when you think that we are not made for each other? As if we are snowflakes and fireballs? But I promise you that I’d still love you, that I’d still keep the bond strong even if we were light years away. You do know that I love you, right?

Her eyes reflected the tears in his eyes.

She had no idea what to answer him.

×∞ Adin

30 July 2020