Why I Don’t Trust

I feel it's best for me to not speak on my thoughts to anyone.

The type of thoughts that will make a person question their own identity and understanding.

I just don't trust anyone with those thoughts.

Trust isn't hard to break.

People will fail you more times than you can count and will go out of their own way to give reasons on why they couldn't pull through for you.

People speak from anger and say things they can never take back but they don't know that I will always remember every word that was spoke down upon my being and I will always hold you to those words no matter how good you do me after because your subconscious finally decided to come to the forefront and release your true emotions upon my heart.

That's why I don't trust.

My trust was executed at point blank range by someone I would go to war for if anyone disrespected them.

Women tell me to tell them how I truly feel but they really don't want to know that.

They don't want to know that they will never compare to what I had even though what I had is lost but I still hold what I had all the way up with the upmost love and respect.

They don't want to know that I don't want to fill and heal that void in their heart because I have my own void to mend so what do I look like fixing someone when I can't even fix myself?

I don't care about locking myself down with someone.

I care about having the freedom to go through life with another soul without having to put chains on my wrists and ankles just to show her I'm not going anywhere.

I don't have time to play games with people who don't even care to find themselves.

I want my circle to be filled with enlightened and illuminated souls.

I want someone who can match my mind and see that sex is only a small fraction of the love we will share into eternity.

But that's life for you.

-Amaru Shakur