You’re doing just fine.

Happiness, courage, strength, power, consistency, patience, freedom, all these, life offers them to us at least once. We live our lives trying to outdo ourselves, we live trying so hard to impress our loved ones, we live trying so hard to not disappoint our loved ones at our own expense and we live trying to prove that we have everything under control. We are constantly trying and usually, it is for someone other than oneself. It is undoubtedly draining. How much different would life be if the process was reversed? If we pleased ourselves first if we were proud of our efforts and small achievements first if we believed in ourselves first? I do not doubt that our loved ones would still be happy for us and proud of our journey. I know what you're thinking, there is a conflict of interest. Whether to be selfless, unsatisfied yet happy that your loved ones are happy or be selfish, unsatisfied with your loved one's support and happy. Just take some time and breathe. Honestly, you typically get one shot at life in this world and you do not want to waste that chance by not living it to the fullest. We all need to stop pacing ourselves in comparison to other people's timelines. We just have to logically account for our individuality and have faith in ourselves. We will fail. We will want to give in so bad. We might even fall for the trap and venture in something else, however, we need to have faith in ourselves at all times. Faith that we will once more, rise again. Faith that we have not failed in vain but have learnt something new. Faith that we are not perfect but we will get there and shock ourselves. Trust me, life is uncertain. One moment you're up, the other you're down. One moment you hear that one universe exists, the other we have parallel universes and all sorts of beings roam our earth. Life is a thriller film and you get to create as many plot twists as you want. You get to write down in history how your story ends. Everything will turn over clean for you. Calm down, relax. You're doing just fine.