and it’s been a while

The mirror reflects my greatest mistakes, so I break it. I used to breathe you in, oxygen, euphoria, my ecstasy. But an hourglass’ sand stays stagnant without a hand to turn the glass figure anew, and without you I froze, lost in a world without my other half.

How are you doing? Glass fragments drop silently, pathetically onto the tan carpet, and I wish I could hear more, feel more, but without you I am a husk, shedding my skin at the beginning of summer, and disappearing at the end of fall.

It’s so cold without you.

My sun, my warmth, my light. Where did you go?

You left without saying goodbye. The maple leaves fly in the wind, spinning, spinning, dancing without a partner and I cannot help but watch in awe, but never in envy, as I know their song and my feet move without thinking, wondering if I will ever find you again in my life.

I will learn to live without you. The glass scars my skin, I step on sharp edges and they remind me that I will learn to live without you.

I will learn, but I will never forget you. The sun will rise, and I will watch her, thinking of you.