You Didn’t Love Me Back

I should have known..

I should have known you had not changed..

Everyone was right. But I loved you, Ruby.

Well, I thought I did. I can't say I do anymore.

I thought you were pretty for the longest time. Ever since middle school.

But I was blind, deaf, numb, ignorant, and oblivious.

I ignored everything you had done and all the torture you caused.

I defended you when I knew deep down inside..

You were the one who had always been in the wrong.

I thought I was happy....but then I realized, we were never an actual couple. We just acted like we were. We never went on dates or hugged.

You only chose me because I was small. Easy to manipulate.

You thought of it as a joke..and I fell for it.

Was this payback for all the years of pranking me and my brother did to everyone?

That wouldn't make any sense though, none of our pranks hurt anyone. They were just fun pranks..like throwing pies to your face or snowballs being thrown at you. We never meant any harm and everyone knew that. You knew that.

You and Lillian will always be the same. No one will like you. No one will be with you.

Not even the weak and small like me. Not anymore.

I wrote this to you for a reason I don't even know.

But you did not win against me, Ruby Ashfield.

You don't even deserve that last name.

You're just like your grandfather, or your uncle when he was younger.

The Ashfields were monsters until things changed. And then you brought all the suffering and pain back.

It was just a silly crush. But you made me fall. And you abused me. But I never gave up on you. What an idiot I was.

I hope you're happy now..you're all alone.