12/11 (reacting to your assumptions about me)

Oof you killed me. I felt...slightly called out at some of these. But anyway, happy friday. My SAT prep book came in the mail today and it's about 4 inches thick (11 inches long too) so that'll be a journey. Apparently I'm supposed to read it 2-4 times before the test.

Anyway, this was fun. You'll see I kind of looped some together just to kind of expedite things.

You’re rich/you’re poor/rich but act poor/poor but act rich

Hm...I'm not really either. I think I'm pretty strictly middle-class (well, my family is. I'm still technically a child and I've got about $200 in my personal bank account, but y parents have an account for me too and idk anything about that). But anyway, I don't think I act poor or rich, either. I think I just kind of act the same as most people in my area. Right in the middle. Idk.

Money is something I've definitely had to take a long time to understand--my friends a lot of the time had more than us and as a kid I got it, but like not really. I think I didn't really truly get it until this year when I realized most colleges were...going to be just completely out of the question. It was an interesting realization. Melancholic, but not sad. I've just kind of tried to count myself as lucky since then, like I have what I have and that's something to be thankful for and not take for granted.

You brag about your writing because you know you’re talented

I think everyone slips up, so I definitely have in the past, but for 99% of the time: no. I honestly don't consider myself to be a super talented person and I've seen so many better writers so like...there's really not much to brag about in my opinion.

You’re an only child/you’re a middle child

I got like 2 people assuing I'm a middle kid which...I don't understand, but okay. No, I'm not a middle or an only, I'm actually the oldest of three (I have a brother and a sister), plus my cousins who I used to see enough that it felt like they were siblings too.

You don’t actually like writing but continue it because you get attention online for it

No way. I really do love writing and it's never about the online recognition. I genuinely do just write for myself, sharing it is just for me too. Like how social media girls say their accounts are like diaries, this is almost that for me. My writing highlights. But if you took down all these sites tomorrow, my life wouldn't really be affected. Sure, I'd miss talking to a few of you, but I'd keep writing. Always.

You’re popular irl/you’re unpopular irl

It depends on the group, but typically I think I'm somewhere in the middle. Not super popular, but not someone people won't want to hang out with because they're uncool (I'm only that person at one place) but I think I'm usually either in the generally liked crowd or the nice girls (if we want to use tiktok labels) and I like both of those.

You’re a picky eater

Kind of. Like, I'll eat a lot of things if it's just what someone's cooking but I don't actually like a lot. Only a few things I'll flat out refuse though--chili (there was an incident), squash, and anything with peppers in it.

You secretly think you’re heather/the main character but would never say it out loud

No way. I feel like my best friend Hayden is definitely Heather and my other best friend Sena is a main character, though. I don't know, maybe I'm like a side character or something lol.

You prefer deep talk w strangers than small talk with best friends

A hundred percent. Does anyone else find it so much easier to just be super deep with strangers because you feel like they won't remember it or see you again--or is that just me?

You secretly but not secretly want to become a warrior princess

Mmm...no. I'd rather be a lawyer and a pen-name poet who wears vintage clothes and hangs out in a dusky study writing at night and maybe sings jazz at karaoke. I want a husband and a daughter and I want a tiny wedding on a rooftop on New Years' Eve that my best friends and their kids can plan and a simple but important life. I don't want to be a warrior or a princess or really any combination of those two things.