Having Anger to Tea

Hey there, Good Morning!

You! Yes, You!

I See You Lurking.

Ha,Ha! But there is no need, Dear One.

I would like to invite you in for a cup of tea.

I See the shock and mistrust on Your Face.

I don't blame You.

I've treated You like a “Redheaded Stepchild”,

As the Country Folk like to say.

Really, though, thanks for giving me some Time Alone.

You do wear a person out.

Now don't get riled up! JK!

I'll stop. I thought humor might

Lighten things up a bit.

But we will leave the Dawn to that task

Here, I will come Outside in the Shadows with You.

Aaah, what a Gorgeous Morning!

That Breeze is Delightful.

It was the Tree Frog in my Garden that Woke Me.

I wasn't even irritated upon waking.

Just curious as I woke up Light and Mellow

And I wondered what it was that caused this Delicious Awakening.

So Anger, You are an Intense Girl.

But I Love You.

Yes, You.

You are Real. You Exist.

You Exist for a reason.

I just wanted that said, Straight Out.

Now I would like to Give You a Chance to say something.

How about I meditate,

Go Head, Heart, Hara, then come back.

Was that Roar on the Breeze a Sign of your discontent?

I am staying Outside with You.

I meant “back” as in back from within myself.

So where have you been, my Friend?

I asked my mind and it said

“She's been here all along. She can snap at any minute.”

Well, my Monkey Mind didn't even get a Banana,

As that wasn't very nice.

My Heart.

My Heart said

That I am addicted to You. Chemical responses emitted due to Your Presence. Affecting my Dopamine Receptors.

Kind of Heavy for Heart. More of a Mind response…

And then I went to Hara. Where of course it all made sense.

The Hara allowed Your Voice to come through.

And I heard Your Response.

“I am Love.”

Which at first I didn't get.

But after a Moment’s Reflection

I realized all three, Mind, Heart and Hara, were correct.

You have been here all along.

And You certainly could snap at any time.

But I don't think You will.

I know You are born from Fear and Hurt.

And that I fed You what We thought You Needed.

And You became an addict Yourself.

But I am Softening You back into Love. Back to Source.

I am allowing the Power that is in You to come to Light.

Yes, You are Light. You are a Powerful Goddess of Truth, Agnus.

If I may call You by Your given Name.

I Love Your Power. I can use Your Power for Good.

To Create and Communicate all that is Wrong with the World,

But more Importantly, how to Fix it.

Excuse Me for Hating and Fearing You.

That I wouldn't Acknowledge or talk about You.

How Lonely and Sad You must up have Felt!

What's that?

Oh, Sweetie, I Know You were only trying to Help.

Oh! I just heard the Roar upon the Wind!

Not a Sound of Your distaste, but an Affirmation!

How misunderstood You must always Feel!

Like Gollum. Like Grendel.

Let's have a Fun Nickname to go with Agnus.

Because We aren't trying to Change who You are,

But how You are Perceived,

And My reactions to these Perceptions.

Clementine? Well, that might be kind of long for a Nickname.

How about Clemmie for short?

I think this is the Beginning of something Beautiful, Clemmie.

I'm going to check in with You throughout the day.

I want to get to Know each other. Learn how to Communicate.

Learn how to Understand one another.

Because I am You, Kid.

And I am Beginning to Love Me.

And I guess that means Every Part of Me.

Thank You for Being There from the Beginning, Agnus.

Oh, You do like Clemmie?

So it is.

Thank You, Clemmie.

For Helping me Survive.

And Maintaining the Desire to Thrive.

You can take a backseat Now, though.

We can be in the midst of this Hurting World

And Know that We are Loved Unconditionally.

Do You want to Know a Secret?

Between New Pals?

We Always have been.

P.S. Did You Notice it is getting Brighter already? Love You, Clemmie. XXX OOO