Hang on

When I got you I never knew how much you would mean to me. I never knew the love I would hold to you. You were small, scared and so was your sister. I got you to keep you safe, from whatever destinty would befall you if I didnt. You and her grew up together. For four and a half years now you sit there waiting for death. Despite all I have done I know you cant hold on forever. I know you life is drawing to an end, I have seen this since the day a couple mounths ago, when your arm got stuck in the filter. Given a death sentence by all that saw you, you defeated the odds, I like to think for me, if not for me then your sister. Now you lay mostly still, bloated and organ systems shutting down. All the pain you feel will go away soon. I know you love me despite what others say, I know that you know my love, and that you had a good life. I wish I could see you again, back on that first day, back in the tank at the store, where you were only a baby. I wish I could see you grow up again, to see you raise babys of your own. Now please dont hold on for me, do what you want, because in the end it is unaviodable. I dont want you to suffer anymore, to see you do so hurts me. Its ok take your last breath, dont hold on to it. Me and sammy will be fine, I will look after her and keep her safe like I always have. Forever and always I will love you and you will love me.