loving you.

loving you is like a spring morning.

birds chirping, sun shining, and flowers blooming,

it makes you feel like being in love,

and it makes you happy to be in love.

loving you is like an endless supply of happiness. 

every time i see you, hear your laugh,

just be around you,

brings a smile to my face.

loving you is like being in a constant state of fear. 

especially since i am not a boy and you are a girl. 

if you were to find out, if anyone were to find out,

i don’t know what would happen to me.

loving you is like a long-distance relationship.

because of our situation,

i can only love you from afar,

because getting close to you will always be a struggle.

loving you is like a heart attack.

my heart is beating too fast,

sometimes it hurts,

but i can’t stop it. 

loving you is like constantly being second place.

good enough to win something, but not enough to win first place.

i’m good enough to be able to be by your side,

but not good enough to be the one you call yours.

loving you is like a bittersweet ending.

i’m happy you’ve found someone you love,

i’m happy that you’re happy.

i just wish that someone was me.