Sleep and the loss of a loved one.

Over the past week and a half. Well, 11 days, I have been almost unable to sleep. I know exactly why, and that's the worst part. I have gotten a total of 30 hours of sleep and I'm exhausted mentally emotionally and physically. I have been told "It's okay, dogs die all te time, now you have it in control." "Everything happens for a reason." "Just get a new one." It's not gonna work like that but I appreciate the sentiment. It's harder and harder to look at myself and think that I made the right choice. It was one or the other, was this the right one? What would have happened if I let her keep living?

Well now that I've put the weight of a life on my shoulders, It's hard to breathe. It always has been, and it will be fot a while. I've been made very aware that this will pass, though. I don't really care becaust that doesn't bring her back.

Please take care of yourselves, not mant people can do it for you.