unfiltered gone

agonized identity // calloused thumb pads // broken chords for dissonant disappearances and // sad summers in mucky smog. // i tend to wonder if // i’d neglected to read // in primary school if i’d fled // from the bookshelves and // found solace in wet backroads would i // be at peace with my being // by now?

in waves of rushed tendencies // habits hard from attempted endings // flashes of past // envelop my gaze // unsurprised by the tired scratches // by the limelight’s damage to my skin. // i flash a strained smile i // stutter through my speech i // greet silence like a champ and // treat science like my rationale for // social scenes long missed.

reminisce with me in binary code // holes and slashes // batting eyelashes at the ghosts of lost // chances, fragments of // forgotten fidelity and unnoticed charm // the way time passes by // as if she’d lied about // how long she would wait. i would // sprint with my lungs, scream from // my legs if only they would // carry me to bliss by the due date. // i’m afraid i bask // in expired sunlight // with uninspired dreams // far too jaded for this life // its demands and my needs.