The terror of existence among those I love and those I don’t.

I feel,

Terrible.

Breaking in pieces,

Shattered.

Falling apart,

Cracked.

Shoved into a mold,

Of which I don't fit.

Told to advocate for myself,

And then told to be quiet.

Told that I have worth,

And then told they're disappointed in me.

Told that they love me,

And then told that they hate me for me.

Told that I don't need to diet,

And then told that I'm fat in the next sentence.

Told me that I'm beautiful,

And then told me I was an ugly thing.

So can someone please,

Please.

Help me.

I'm scared of here,

Anxious.

Feeling glum,

Falsely happy.

So what am I?

Hanging in the balance.

Too tired to fight,

To keep trying.

I need a breath of fresh air,

But there's no windows.

No door to walk through.

I need to forgive,

But how?