Addiction

Life presents us with tests that we use our addictions to get through. Some it may be the gym or meditation. Mine is pills the body high it gives you to make you feel everything. Every beat in a song to every drop in the summer evening rainfall. But let me tell you why although no excuse but the truth is when I’m elevated outside of my norm I feel the pain raw cut throat down to the bone like that turkey on thanksgiving day. I get to feel all of my sins who I call savages the beasts in the night that tear my flesh with no turning back. But let me put the thanksgiving dinner table scenario in your mind. Think of a rich family with the head of wolves looking at a table full of delectable foods . Waiting to tear everything to shreds everyone getting their own share most wanting more than the rest. Greed but they just have to have that little bit more to feel something. Content is what they want to feel. So now let me take you back to me the addict now I’m above the clouds deep in thought yearning for inspiration but while my high is escalating I forget to realize the sins that are continuing to get their fill. While battling the dark the light prevails boom a thought inspiration to enhance my life. But if you are an addict to something you know that there can always be a good or bad trip. But what happens when they collide. When both suck you into a vortex of confusion. Opposites it may seem the good really bad and the bad really reality.