a random spilling of thoughts
I must have gone insane. Because I decided to do something so far out of my comfort zone that it’s, like, in another universe. I—having no prior experience as a commentator, having the bare minimum of tech knowledge, and barely knowing how to turn a computer on—decided to attempt to cover an iceberg on yt. So far the journey has been a big yikes. Research is relatively easy; it’s just the other stuff. I tried recording myself talking in GarageBand and quickly discovered that I couldn’t even do that right. Which I should’ve probably figured, as my speech has never been the clearest. Once this notion was cemented, I decided to practice elocution, so I did that for a little while and finally got a few good (read: passable) takes. I was gonna’ do the visuals on iMovie. They were basically a bunch of stills with info—pretty much just a slideshow with me talking over it. But that fell through when iMovie smushed the images down and made the text so little to read that you’d have a better shot reading pinholes. The alternative frames were Ken Burns, which, no. And a cropped full-screen option. Which would only allow me a small chunk of my image to work with. So no iMovie. That being my only editor, I had to search up others, preferably free because I’ve recently spent way too much money on other stuff. I ended up trying to download this thing called Blender, as per recommendation. It took like 20 hours. And my Mac was so out of date that after it downloaded, it wouldn’t run. I needed OS 10.13 or later. So I had to check for updates manually since my computer, which always dogs me with updates, decided to stop dogging me with updates the exact day I needed them*. Bruh. Having located the updates on the Apps thingy, I tried to update all. Several failed, but the important ones took. So I tried to reopen Blender, and...it still wouldn’t open because the update was for 10.12 and, again, it required a 10.13 or later. I waited to see if my Mac would give me the option of a new new update. I shut it down and turned it back on, I think twice. But no. No such result. So I went searching online for downloads of 10.13, as I discovered Apple gives these things out for free. I found one and tried to download it. And when a glitch, I guess, stopped the download, I tried downloading it AgAiN. And when the same glitch, I guess, stopped that download, I tried something else. Eventually I came to a point where I decided to just forgo the stairstep of updates and go for the newest—Big Sur. Stray observation: they name their updates the most random things. High Sierra was my first online pursuit. I’m assuming that’s referencing a location and not a junkie. Probably Nevada. Big Sur is a place (I know because Thompson referenced it hehe I’m smort :^)), so that would make sense. I’m overthinking this. Anyway, I wound up finding a Big Sur download available, so I’ve been shooting for that. You know how it shows the projected time remaining below the download bar. I think that hit like 90+ hours at one point. It’s been like a day(?) and I have over 60 left. Yay.
I don’t even know if I’ll go through with the iceberg, but that’s been my struggle. I’ve been on this thing for such a long time. Gotta’ love how most YouTubers can churn these things out in like a week. Hahaha*cries in three plus weeks*.
*Addendum: My computer probably didn’t dog me with updates because I usually select the ‘remind me tomorrow’ option and I don’t think a full day had passed.
On other fronts, my acne is improving since I finally tried Proactiv. I think I’ve described my acne as ‘an uphill battle if that hill was 100% vertical’ before. It’s sad when you can go down the skin care aisle at Target and be like “doesn’t work, doesn’t work, doesn’t work”. So to find something that is actually working is a very valued feat, since my acne is apparently tOo PoWeRfuL for common products. I have had some really weird dreams since I started using Proactiv, but since my dreams are already kinda’ bonkers, I can’t say for sure if Proactiv is the cause. My body is super sensitive to chemicals and stuff, so that’s the foundation for my hypothesis.
Oh, and Wattpad. I joined afresh a couple months back and I’m up to 154 followers now (but unlike here it fluctuates a lot so no guarantees how long that’ll last). I had a pretty wild experience within my first, like, month I think. Because unlike last time I’m a little more outgoing now and I follow accounts that look cool, which makes me more easily discoverable to others. Well, apparently I got on the radar of a spam account. So they followed me, I guess seeing me as an easy followback. And I did follow them back. Then a bunch more spam accounts started glomming on and following me, and it was super confusing because none of these people were English and I don’t think there’s any translators on WP, so I was just like...I don’t understaaaand why they’re so interested in me probably just for a followback yeah that’s definitely it haha. Tho I mostly don’t follow spam accounts back anymore because more always come and it’s kinna’ stressful. O^O Wattpad is a *totally* different animal from TheProse. The first spam attack was funny. I was freaking out because my followers jumped from I think like 37 to 140-something overnight. I was nooot used to that kind of “fame”. Most of the ones I didn’t follow back then got salty and gradually left. I caught on. It’s just whatevs. *Shrug*
Anyway, I’ve been gone a lot on here, so now you know part of where I’ve been. :3