1 July 2021

Yes, I got one more day here. And another here so here I go

I went on a music spree. I found some really cool metal vibes in a kpop girl group, Dreamcatcher, and am addicted to their sounds. I love metal since a few months ago and now that I found this stuff I am, of course, replaying that shit too much for me to comprehend a certain number. The violence, the guitar, the lyrics, the aesthetics, everything, man just everything.

I am also going through a phase where I can't stop listening to Russian music with way too much swearing. Dunno, might be a consequence of strict parents who don't allow such a behaviour, and I understand why they would feel like this but there is one possibility of it influencing me as a whole. Morgenshtern is the artist I'm binging at the moment. I swallow the rythm, overindulge in the bass and the abstract beat behind his songs. I have all the ideas that this stuff isn't something that would benefit me on a mental level but at the same moment I don't care about it. I am inclined to say it's a relief from intense mental activity but I won't, knowing that I don't really have that much mental activity.

Speaking of bass the kind of songs I am most into are really dependant on it. The energy it gives off, making my teeth clatter and my heart bump into strong beats, gives me the best feelings ever.

They are shouting in my ears, some rappers I have no idea about name. Thanks mr Spotify for just feeding me music, I am not someone to care about the name so I don't. My friends ask me who is my favorite artist and I say no idea. I'm as free as the music flowing in my headphones. Wait, this isn't really the case, seeing that music respects the artist that composed it. I'm free like anything you will think about, with the sole condition being that IT will be actually free.

I will spend some time to talk about the IT you might think about. IT currently lives as a thought, and even though it isn't palpable in thought form, as long as it isn't some abstract concept IT will have a counterpart in the outside world. Or maybe inside world because IT depends on the person thinking about it and what they will associate IT with.

Ok bye.