An ode to you; I’m awed by you, exactly as you are

All my life, I've never exactly been comfortable with my body. I'm just one of those people who are naturally self-conscious(about everything) but I somehow managed(mostly) to push back those insecurities; after all, I'd never discriminate against anyone else's body, so why should I cause myself to suffer such irrationality(feed my insecurities unhealthy, not to mention, uncalled for, critiques that only serve to shame and scorn) but it's a helluva journey; with more back and forth's than I can keep up with. So I know body issues. But I don't think anyone other than recipients are fully able to understand the torture of being the wrong gender. Someone close to me has tried to explain it to me and though I felt their heartbreak, confusion, isolation and incomprehension, I knew I couldn't come close to understanding living with it every single day. Knowing that heartbreak, confusion, isolation and incomprehension as long as you have known that you are not what you were supposed to be. What you want to be. I know this is probably not what this was supposed to be about but I need to say; to my beloved and anyone out there enduring the same struggle, in a world that is, all too often, harsh and cruel: I personally do not think God makes any mistakes and God definitely did not make a mistake with you. You are exactly as you are meant to be. If you were born a different gender, you wouldn't be who you are and the world needed you, exactly as you are. And though there are too many who believe different, most of the world knows and will continue to ratify; you can be exactly what you want to be. You be exactly who you want to be! God didn't give you this struggle for no reason. I've seen a bit of the strength it takes to go on living, to try to understand and accept yourself in a world that, all too often, simply refuses to understand and accept others; it takes resilience that not everyone possesses. I know I couldn't possibly come close to understanding but I applaud it. I applaud you. And I pray for your continued strength, endlessly blissful happiness and much, much more.