Near Death-

We sat on the concrete wall.

Both of us sinking in sunshine.

But he asked me

If I've nearly died.

I said no. He said he did.

He almost drowned, you know.

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning

But it's not the same.

And I said I'm sorry

And he said it wasn't my fault.

But so many things are.

Fifteen years of mistakes is cause.

But no effect has come.

I wish I'd nearly died too.

Maybe even finished off.

And he said to me why I wished

I had nearly died too.

"Is it so you can be more empathetic?"

He has too many kind thoughts.

No.

"It would just balance things out."

I replied.