Restraints of Religion.

I'm still constantly questioning my religious beliefs, though, I identify more as free-spirited now. The restraints of religion were always nagging at me. I felt like everything I did was a sin, I felt like I had to be a certain way, and felt that God didn't love me. Do I still believe in God? Yes. Do I still believe there's a spiritual realm like Heaven? Yes. Do I believe in organized religion? Not really. Though, I do believe in aspects of Christianity, the organized scheme of it and hatred that it caused was horrifying. Thankfully, my parents, whom are Christians, aren't like the people I've encountered. I feel like the organization of it and delusion has caused it to become a cult-like phenomenon.