“I can tell you haven’t taken your Vyvanse today”
it took me a long time to realize
that its not bad to wake up at 11 am
or to be in a mood when you're feeling annoyed
or to stay in your room all day, if thats what you need.
i was living my life based on the voices in my head
your voice, specifically.
"you might need someone as your personal assistant"
"....they could serve as your executive function"
"someone who could help you make it to these appointments you keep missing"
oh, so someone like you?
i have a mental illness and you don't realize that because of that you have always treated me like i am five years old
thats why i dont trust myself, why im shy when i talk
my confidence i kept in your responsibility and since you take it and rip it up every time, i am left to collect the pieces as they come falling to make what little of an identity i have left
and its an endless loop, as long as i listen to you i will believe i am limited
but i am proud to say i am learning
to cover my ears