Energy

If I have the energy to heal,

then do I have the energy to expend?

To let myself try to love again?

Is it wise to take the little bit I have

And turn it to another and not myself?

Shouldn't I have learned by now?

Why am I not more reserved?

This energy isn't truly in abundance,

and would it not be selfish to think the small amount I have to give is enough for someone else?

It is barely enough for me.

This heart is so foolish,

and I have yet to learn how to tame her rash desires;

I wish she knew to quiet down.

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