i hide from my mind,
pushing it down
pretending that it's all a dream
and i'm a boat rowing gently down a stream.
i pretend that i'm alive,
but i'm only hiding from my mind
and when it finds me
it will have no mercy
all the thoughts i've been ignoring
all the pain i've caused it.
i didn't mean to.
it'll never forgive me for what
i don't hate my mind,
i only fear it
is my fault.