Lost and Found.

Most of the times, we human beings fail to acknowledge the silver linings in the clouds that rain on our parades, darkening our days down to muted grays and faded blues. Our hearts are burdened with such gut-wrenching grief and insurmountable loss that we are unable to think clearly and see the bigger picture; it's not as bad as it seems. I was once caught up in a toxic relationship that literally drove me insane. I was depressed, suicidal and left utterly broken after it ended. I thought I had lost my soulmate, somebody meant to love me for all of eternity but what I failed to see was that I had been suffering all along. He didn't love me. He never did. All he ever cared about was himself and all he needed was somebody to fuel his own damn ego. In the process of trying to win the love he wasn't capable of, I lost myself. However, as the Sufi proverb goes: "When the heart weeps for what it has lost, the spirit laughs for what it has found." Looking back on that part of my life, I now realize that the only thing that I lost was the baggage I was carrying around: him. After losing him, I felt so much lighter, it felt as if a weight had been lifted off of my chest. I am now at my best and have no care for the rest of the world. My spirit is at peace and that is all that matters to me. My happiness comes first which automatically ensures that I am never at the losing end and I have nothing to worry about anymore. I am free!