DVD

Blue and gray

Fentanyl killed my homeboy today

Didn’t have time to think

Didn’t have time to pray

He was that ray of sunshine that

Both you and I can’t deny

With that stupid dumb goofy ass smile

And that warm embrace that loved nearly

Everybody and Everything

One of the good ones

Taken from this earth

Before his light got the chance to sing

I wish my words didn’t have a single fucking ring

I promise you if I could trade any ounce of ability

For my boys lividity

Breath and dignity

I’d take it all back to god in one day

But today I can’t

It’s a damn shame and I know that

But we can’t go back

I wish my mans thought about that

Before he pulled back

On that strap

I think we've suffered enough we've,

Come around the shit enough,

Dead or in the bed

Fiending or fentanyl driven

Doesn’t matter the talent they been given

Pissing shit away is what the details in

Gray is the way every body lay

In the coffin, so often

Leaving the living

Searching for a reason

A cause to comfort in

Every demonstration of my lack

Lackin tact and

Social graces because

Everytime I talk, or walk, or see a kid drawing [on the sidewalk] in chalk

I see their faces

My mind traces the steps they once took

Down the same city streets god’s somehow graced me to be

Walking down

When I know I didn’t deserve it more than they did

So I head into a old bar I used to get kicked out of

Drink too much vodka

Slam somebodies head in wit a mug

Because all I know is lashing out

Then passing out

It's hard to break a habit

When you live in trauma

You’re the only one there to stop you

Why when it’s all you can do to stuff it down

Lest you live with a frown

Permafrown on your face

Giving new definition the RBF

SAY IT WITCHA CHEST

We used to say

Calling each other gay

For expressing feelings

That shit flew the fuck out the window

When homies started falling like leaves out a tree yo

Seen professionally tough

Upset in the rough

Tears falling down their faces

When does the struggle stop

I can't even begin to keep my shit straight bro

Fuck being hard

I just want the homies to not depart