I have a proclivity for falling in love with people who don't love me back
It's a gift, really
This ability to fall so helplessly and fully for someone who is completely unaware of my affections
This is no accident
I've become a professional at pretending like I don't care about something when I really, really give every single fuck about it
It's for my own safety
Body armor in the form of deviating humor and a refusal to accepted reciprocated attention
Maybe it has to do with the fact that no one has ever pursued me romantically
Maybe it has to do with the fact that every single person I've fallen for is a piece of shit
Who knows, really
I only think of these things when I dance with the skeletons in my closet
Kiss them sweetly on their cheeks and promise I'll be back again soon
Because I always come back
I think we all do.