Power!

I emerge from sleep, fathoms deep. It's been years since I slept like this - not since leaving the childhood home and assuming the cares of the world.

But today everything feels different. Revitalized. Re-energized. The pains that have wracked my chronic illness-ridden body for years are gone. I don't even remember when last I could move without having to make allowances for the pain. In every body part of the body.

Why am I pain-free and full of energy today? Why can I feel the blood pumping vigorously in every cell of my body? Why do I feel so all-powerful? As if I can do anything. Be anything.

Is this what it feels like to be Omnipotent? Perhaps. But how?

I, the most powerless being in the world! The biggest victim/martyr - the quintessential people-pleaser - the eternal sacrificial lamb - the most gullible idiot! Depends on your point of view. Always manipulated - used - in the name of love. In the name of compassion. In the name of empathy. In the name of duty. In the name of responsibility.

Till the realization hit, that the one using me - was me. ME!

Till the understanding came, that to get respect, I had to respect myself.

Till the revelation that my power lies within me!

And as I slipped into sleep last night, on the eve of my landmark fiftieth birthday, I made my birthday pledge - to reclaim my power over my own life. Over my own destiny.

And I know it's a long, arduous road ahead, to get where I really want to.

But by simply throwing off my mental shackles, I'm feeling pretty much Omnipotent.

Yo Life! Here I come!