kissing you

i've dreamt about kissing you

i've dreamt of your soft hands leaving those pockets of yours and tracing along the ticklish parts of my body

dreamt about kissing you on my tippy toes or next to the piano,

i'd kiss you while you play guitar and you'd pluck me like the strings

however, those dreams are long gone

months ago they seeped into my silk pillowcase and faded with the saltwater tears on the sidewalk

so i no longer dream about kissing you

i dream of something more realistic

like forgetting you,

leaving you and every kiss i wish i could've given you in these notebooks filled with every thought i can't express,

ill try to forget you

and every touch we never shared.