4 Years (4/19/22)

4 years....

I never realized how long that felt

how the mind can make things slip away into seconds while letting others linger.

Do you still remember me?

Am I still there, locked up in a corner of your mind?

Do you remember my face and how it would light up every time I saw you?

Do you remember the fuss I made about your new school when they made you shave all of your blue hair off?

Do you still remember me?

Is any of it still there?

Have you moved on already?

I know four years is a lot but still...

for whatever reason I'm still feeling it

I haven't forgotten a single thing.

You have no idea of the countless times I've imagined seeing your again and of all the witty jokes I'd come up with

A part of me started to lose hope,

I thought I would never see you again,

but now you're so close I can feel you burn on the tips of my fingers, sparking a fire in my soul that I thought had died.

I don't want to scare you

after all it's been four years,

but I've missed you and still want my goodbye.