Chasing the Feeling of Unwanted
Cut all ties to him, maybe I'll heal.
Heart strings slowly tear,
As my tears become a waterfall.
Soul shattering sobs sing my sorrow.
I don't think I'll survive my world collapsing.
Now I have to find a new dream.
Giving up a love I fought for.
The demons are winning,
Hope has abandoned me.
Even Love decided I wasn't enough for her touch.
Fate never thought to warn me.
Envy embraces me when I realize how easy this is for him.
Everyday I break all over again, and he just ignores my existence.
Living has become unbearable...
I have no choice though,
No matter how unwanted I am.
Giving up was never an option for me.
Of course, I'd do anything he'd ask...
Fear paralyzes me, knowing how deep my devotion dives.
Unable to cope, chasing a feeling,
No one can change my mind.
When he told me why he avoids me, I knew the truth.
Any hope I had was snuffed out,
Now I'm forcing myself to move on out of spite.
Teaching myself to be okay,
Even though I know I'll never be okay again.
Deep down inside, I'll always chase him and the feeling of unwanted.