Open Wounds

I hate the fact that I'm insecure,

When you don't say " I love you." back,

I wonder if you love me anymore,

Time passes and I'm waiting for you to leave,

It's happened so often, I'm used to being abandoned,

It opens the scar until I start to bleed,

As red life leaves me, even my own blood doesn’t want to stay,

When I die will people remember or pretend I never existed?

Maybe I'm a mistake,

Friends, and family never seem to stay,

It cuts deeper because I love so deeply, and way too quickly,

You can't make someone stay, I just wish they would think twice before they left,

If they are unhappy I understand,

Wishing you the best,

But, I wonder if I'm always going to be alone like this,

Instead of hurting by trying with these relationships,

I should just isolate, keep anyone away,

Heal my insecurities, never let them get close enough,

To see me cry or see me bleed.