"Alexa, play my playlist 'Rampage' on shuffle please" Rob Zombie's Superbeast begins to play over the speakers of her van as she starts to accelerate onto the turnpike. Click. Click. Click. The blinker alerts other drivers as she moves across the asphalt to the fast lane. She charges up the turnpike, making 26 minutes feel like 10. Before she arives at her destination she is met by cop cars and police tape. Must be the shooting she saw on the news the night before. A man gunned down in a parkinglot of a pharmacy. After she passes the scene she is met by others. Less welcoming than the officers she just passed by. Protesters. She drives past them, trying to ignore their words. A muscular man escorts her from her car to the doors of the clinic, but before she enters she can't hold her tongue any longer. People pleading with her, telling her she is a murderer, offering her help. "I like to help others as well, I just don't force people to accept and make them feel bad when they don't." The man opens the door for her and gives her a kind smile as she walks through. "I don't need help" she thinks to herself. They buzz her into the second door and the nurse begins the list of obligatory questions. After the final question she pulls out a large wad of cash and forks it over. A smile on her face, but inside there is a whirlwind of emotions, none of which will deter her from what she has come to do today, but raise anxiety within none the less. She glazes over most of her visit. Sweet considerate nurses. People compliment her astro puffs. Everyone trying to make her feel as comfortable as possible while she is in their care. Finally it is time to take the pills. The sedation and anti-anxiety medication first, then pain killers and 2 pills that she has to keep in her mouth for 30 minutes, then the 60 minute wait for them to take affect. It's finally time. Tears flow down her cheeks as she looks into the large glass dish. This was her choice. Only she can know what is truly best for herself, though it comes at a heavy cost. Her playlist resumes when her engine starts. Uprising by Muse plays over her speakers.