Remember?

Do you remember that day? That day in your life when everything changed? The day when buttercups turned to mulch, and steak turned to roadkill, and warm turned to cold but you didn't much care because you couldn't feel it anymore? The day when you woke up a child but felt you were an adult? The day your parents put you down and never picked you up again? The day when everyone around you kept on going as if everything was normal, everything was fine, but it wasn't? The day when rainbows grew tired of color, and the sun decided it rather liked the night-time. The day when you turn left instead of right, and you know that's not where you should go but you want to anyway; if not a destination then an ending. The day you know your mother will cry, but you turn anyway? The day when everything lets loose on you, and you couldn't control your own thoughts? The day when you see the car coming, but you keep going? The day when you know that you should stop, but your hands move for you? The day you want to never ever go home? The day you broke your family's hearts? The day you wrecked your own? The day you thought would never come, but did?

Do you remember that moment? That moment when everything made sense, yet was completely foreign? That moment when you made eye contact and saw the shock that changed your life? The moment when you realized they were alive too? The moment you regretted everything you had ever done? The moment you felt two worlds collide, annihilating each other? The moment a cacophony raged, but you felt in total silence? The moment when everything goes slow motion, and you get to watch every millisecond of your mistake go by? The moment you remembered buttercups and candy grams? The moment you thought of how your brother would always wash your dish? The moment you remembered all the tiny wonders of the earth? The moment you realize that someone was always there for you? The moment glass shattered and metal bent? The moment when your whole life was crashing down, but you were bringing someone else down with you? The moment you realized that person has a family? The moment you imagine everyone they will leave behind because of you? That moment when you changed lives and broke hearts? The moment you ended life and didn't shed a tear? The moment you wanted to live so badly it hurt? The moment you wished you had known how precious your life was before you abandoned it? The moment you wish you never wanted?

...Because I remember mine.