Devil’s Words

Considering too many scenarios,

Hating myself in the middle,

Trauma telling me to jump,

Thinking of how the world is falling apart,

Did I deserve to live?

I relived all of my mistakes,

Another nail in the coffin that my pain was becoming,

You see nothing when those words come calling,

Not family, not love, not beauty,

Just the devil trying to make you think,

That your life is worth nothing,

It's deeper than depression,

The war between hell and heaven,

Between the shadow and the consciousness within,

Something about the end,

Felt comforting when torturous thoughts came in,

But good will win,

In my heart I always had the strength,

To pull back and start again.