My Regrets of Me
It's crazy how I'm thinking about you, & how I haven't moved on
I'm sad & depressed watching the news, looking to the side of me & your gone
And if your gonna be gone, I'd rather for you to be dead
Instead of me having to think about ways to get you back in my bed
They way that you got me feeling is tearing me to shreds
Tearing me apart
You took a razor blade that was super sharp
Took it to my heart
Im scared
Baby it's hard
To live like this, knowing that your alive, but your not alive in my arms
Wow, you not being here, is actually causing me harm
I um……I now know how you feel
Your feelings & your emotions are oh so very real
I feel ashamed
I'm thinking you made me feel like this, when I’m the one to blame
I complained,
If I wanted it to be different, then I should of caused the change
Instead of causing the pain
You was right to leave
But the fact that your gone……all that makes me want to do is grieve
Baby I can still feel your presence, I can still feel your love in the atmosphere
All I could do now is think about every second, I held you dear
I held you close, we laid in bed together
I still see your glow, I might not see you, but I'll see memories of you forever
I could've did better,
But that could've is what I should've happened, but however
As I get through each day, of you not being here
I replay in my mind, of you wiping your tears
I said I was sorry, but that wasn't something you wanted to hear
……….you got me in tears, that razor blade feels like a spear
But it was all my fault
When I had you, I was winning, now that your gone, I took a loss
I see the sun shining, a beautiful yellow, & orange beams
I had a beautiful dream
That we had a family, yes, created wonderful offspring
We all made each other smile, we all made each other feel complete
I just wish that now, I could go back & undo the moment when you hit delete
And be the best I should be,
And we would come together & create something unique
These are the………
These are the regrets of me, and how I was wrong to treat you,
Baby I want you, need you, long for you, crave you, & most of all I love you
-PoeticFlow