I Am Not In Control.

I was never under any delusion that I had any power over my words.

It's teamwork in a sense

But not in the normal way one might think.

I am only a vessel; a channel between

The world they live in and the one in which I reside.

I am the only link they have from their infinity to the page to our infinity once again

And I might feel pride to say it is I that plucks them out of nothing

One by one

To spin into magic.

But I would be lying.

Even now,

The words only apparate into my mind and travel to my fingertips;

I am letting them do as they sowish.

My fingers only bring them to this reality but

I hardly begin to think them before another and another appear.

So no.

I've never been the one in charge.

I wouldn't want to be.

It's a lot more fun when you have no idea what you're running towards -

The tricky part is giving yourself the permission to simply let go.